It's the fear of being alone.

I am sitting alone at home right now, and it feels surprisingly good.
I am rarely by myself anymore, and I think that adds to my stress sometimes, that I just don't have any "me" time.
I think I have this fear that if I don't have the people I love around me at all times, that they will all leave me.
No idea why, but I think it stems from things that have happened in the past.
I need to quit thinking about things so much, quit worrying, and mostly quit running from solitude.